Whispering wind, silent cries
A pain that awakens and never dies
A touch of love never to be mine
A feeling that fades more in time
They want me to believe this is livin’
Just a person hallowed out by everything that I’ve given
Sometimes I want to fight back
Think that maybe I’m on the right track
But then my mind grows tired and my body – it’s weak
I can’t fight anymore and my outlook turns bleak
You see these wars that I wage are battles within
I’m dying inside and these walls that I’ve built yeah, they start to thin
They were built so long ago they’re cracking and beginning to crumble
The lines I drew to separate and divide all start to blur and I begin to stumble
Don’t take it personal it really is me not you
I change my mind every day so I’ll take the blame for you not knowing what to do
I am like a roller coaster grab a seat and hitch a ride
You don’t like to hang on when I’m low but you sure have fun when I’m high
Before I plummet to the bottom make sure you’re fastened in tight
Because I can easily take a wrong turn in the blink of an eye
You smile politely and say you don’t mind
But I feel this distance between us growing with time
My mind has been leaking out into this world that I know
With feelings of rage, love and hate things used to be easier not to show
But the older I get the weaker I grow unsure of what to believe
With my mind and boundaries of reality beginning to interweave
This life that I live is not a life of my own
Depite how mean I can be my heart still isn’t stone
I’ll stand here out in the cold tongue-tied
And as I watch you turn to go everything shatters inside
But you can’t stay by my side because I’m sick in the head
When I can’t see the light I think everyone’s better off if I’m dead
My mind constantly changing like the design in a kaleidoscope
Always performing this balancing act while I walk this tightrope
Though I manage to cope despite how weary I’ve grown to be
And it’s just fine by me you can stay at the shore while I’m drifting into the sea
I think you were onto something with the roller coaster metaphor. It stuck out as one of the stronger points in the poem.
I think there might be a typo at the start, did you mean pain rather than paint?
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Thank you. Lol yes I did, thank you.
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